Mar. 3rd: Back on the Horse

So I can occasionally be a little hard on myself.  Alright - I can often be VERY hard on myself.  I wouldn't claim that I'm a perfectionist.  It have never had a notion of needing to do things perfectly.  However - I do hold myself to the standard of being the best that I can be.  So when I feel like I don't meet those qualifications, I get really hung up about them.  The perfect example of this was at my last improv show.

The show was good ... or so Luke tells me.  But because I was not meeting my own standard I had a hard time seeing it from an outside perspective.  Especially when it came to my own performance.  I knew I was better than what I performed but for some reason I just couldn't get out of my own head - which in improv almost always makes for a difficult night.  After that performance I really felt like I needed another try to prove to myself that I wasn't a complete failure (that's not even an exaggeration - that's actually how I felt.  Yup . . .  I be crazy).

Fortunately this Saturday I was able to get back up on that horse and try again, and it was a GREAT show.  There's certainly room for improvement (as there always is) but in general I felt like I met all of my goals for the evening which included using varied characters, making it clear who I was in almost all of my scenes, and keeping things positive.  And the fact that I was able to have a good show in front of the boyfriend's boss - well make that an extra dose of awesome!  Great night!  Good to feel like I'm back.